and me, i still believe in paradise. but now atleast i know it's not some place you can look for, cause it's not where you go. it's how you feel for a moment in your life when your apart of something, and if you find that moment...it lasts forever..
hatred is not a family value
Sometimes when I feel like killing someone, I do a little trick to calm myself down. I'll go over to the person's house and ring the doorbell. When the person comes to the door, I'm gone, but you know what I've left on the porch? A jack-O'-lantern with a knife in the side of its head with a note that says "You." After that, I usually feel a lot better, and no harm done.
The mind has exactly the same power as the hands; not merely to grasp the world, but to change it.
Hate Me
Behind this face,
Sad, lonely,
Hidden without a trace.
Invisible to the eye,
All alone here I lye.
Afraid to be me,
Not wanting anybody to see.
Wanting to die,
But all I can do is cry.
So hey, just let it pour out
don't let your past begin to let you down
just sing it out, just let it make sound
and as heard, it will be healed and found.
One Girl
One girl looking out her window
One boy walking down the street
He didn't know it at the time
But when she saw him her heart skipped a beat.
One girl playing outside
One boy doing the same
He didn't know it at the time
But she wanted to find out his name.
One girl getting hurt by many boys
One boy mending her heart
He didn't know it at the time
But she loved only him from the start.
One girl standing outside
One boy asking her out
He didn't know it at the time
But she never had any doubts.
One girl loving a boy
One boy loving a girl
He didn't know it at the time
But he was her world.
One girl's heart breaks
One boy moves on
He didn't know it at the time
But her love for him wasn't done.
One girl tries to win him back
One boy doesn't care
He didn't know it at the time
But she wouldn't always be there.
One girl leaves for college
One boy stays where he's at
He didn't know it at the time
But her heart was breaking in half.
One girl's heart is missing
One boy has it you see
He doesn't know it right now
But the two of them are meant to be.
his dreams are like commercials, but her dreams are picture perfect and our dreams are so related, though they're often underestimated
Happily Ever After
thats how they want to think it will be
but its not, not at all in reality
the deaths, the tears, the fears
the falls, through it all, we still gon
the broken hearts, the cheating friends
so much pain, that never ends
the fake smiles, that seem to make everything ok
but no not for you, because the pain wont go away
bright and cheery, but oh so weary, because
inside your heart its breaking in two
im giving up on loving you - i cant take
the pain you have put me through
deep down i know the feelings are there
maybe someday you will care
at least for now i can hide my pain
i know if i dont ill go insane
ive always been afraid of things i cant see
of cold dark nights and scary books, and
of what im expected to be. Ive always
been afraid, that ill always be alone.
i run and hide and then i find im chilled right
to the bone. i want to find a person,who sees
into my soul whoo looks into my eyes and say
"ill catch you if you fall" ive always been afraid
of things i cant see, im scared that when
i find that person, that person wont find me
looking back at sunsets on the eastside,
we lost track of time. dreams aren't what they
used to be, some things slide by so carlessly ..
you melt my butter =]
She seems like your average girl
Goes to school with a smile on her face
Yet walks around with her head in a whirl
Her lifes like an unsolved case
She sets her goals high
She has lots of hopes and dreams
Often askin herself why?
Wondering exactly what perfect means
Her lifes starting to fall apart
But she holds it all inside
Not wanting to explain or knowing where to start
Just looking for some place to hide
No one see's what she's going through
Living in her own form of hell
Looking at life from a different view
With no one to tell
She makes it through each day
Wishing things will be alright
Not knowing what to say
Crying herself to sleep at night
Her friends don't know
But would they even care?
If they do it dosent show
How much more of this can she bare
She'd rather not be home
It's like hell when shes there
She's afraid to be alone
But her feelings she'll never share
Everyone thinks shes always okay
She's loud and outgoing with so much to hide
She faces the world day after day
She uses the angels as her guide
One day she'll overcome all her fears
And become all she can be
Once again she'll begin to care
And discover this girl was me
*** The night was dreary and the rain came down
She said "Lets go for a ride away from town"
All thru the ride she had nothing to say
It was almost as if something stood in her way
Then suddenly it came, out of the blue
"My parents said I have to break up w/ u"
"I'm sorry" she said.. "I cant pretend"
"My parents said our love must end"
She took off his ring as tears came from his eyes
At the same time, the fear of losing her began to arise
With tears threatening to fall, he held them back
As he unconsciously parked the car on a railroad track
He wrote something on a piece of paper
He held her hand and said "Read it later"
He alwaya wished they would never part
He said in a sad voice, "You just broke my heart"
She opened the door and walked out into the rain
Thats when she saw the lights of the train
Realising too late what she had sighted
With a blink of an eye, metal collided
All she could see was blood running red
And someone saying, "I'm sorry..He's dead"
The ambulance sounded like an agony cry
Then she read the paper and it said "Without you, I'd die"
** You are my shooting star,
You make my life light when things seem to be in the dark,
You light up the sky when things get rough,
You shoot your way through my life and will never be forgotten,
I only wish for you...
You aren't just another guy,
You are everything to me
Your better than anything can be,
You are my real prince charming,
I only wish for you.....
If i die before you do,
I'll go to heaven and wait for you,
I love you without regret,
I just dont have you yet,
But dont you worry,
I'll make you fall so madly in love with me,
She'll never run through your mind,
I only wish for you
** "Friends forever," she said.
"Friends forever," he said.
Eight years old and they made the vow to remain friends forever.
"I need room," she said.
"I'll back away," he said.
Ten years old and he made the vow to give each other space.
"Does Tommy like me?" she asked.
"I'll find out," he said.
Twelve years old and he made the vow to find out if Tommy liked her.
"He doesn't love me anymore," she said.
"He doesn't deserve you," he said.
Fourteen years old and he made the vow to love her forever.
"Nobody loves me," she said.
"I know someone who does," he said.
Sixteen years old and he made the vow to love her forever.
"I'm getting married," she said.
"I'll be there," he said.
Eighteen years old and he made the vow to forever hold his peace.
"I got divorced yesterday," she said.
"I'm here for you," he said.
Twenty years old and he made the vow to be there for her forever.
"Why doesn't anyone love me?" she asked.
"I have always loved you," he said.
Twenty-two years old and he made the vow to keep on loving her.
"I could never love you," she said.
"I could never stop," he said.
Twenty-four years old and he made the vow to never stop loving her again.
"I can never see you again," she said.
"I can never live again," he said.
Twenty-six years old and he made the vow never to live again.
"I'm sorry," she said.
Twenty-eight years old and she made the vow as he lay in an open casket
"In everyone's past there is a love they never got over and a summer when it began."
"all we need is the truth in our hand, someone to call a friend, never fear the darkness, all we need is just the sun in the sky, and the hope of a summer to come with the meaning of love."
"Love can make the summer fly or a night seem like a lifetime."
"Did you think this summer that there was any way that you would fall in love with me? Did you ever imagine that everyone would say we were perfect for each other? I did, and that's why I didn't give up after months of fighting for you."
"If I had one wish, I'd wish you next to me, and it could be summer, fall or spring cause you make my heart sing. I wanna give you my heart, my soul, my love to you. Cause everyday I'm not with you, I'm missing you, like crazy."
i dont get it, how can people be so rude? people tell you to never let anything bother you, you should never care what people say about you, that you shouldnt care what people do to you, all of my friends think im so strong, that i dont care what poeple say or do to me, but what they dont know is that what people say to me, does actually hurt me, it hurts so much that i cry myself to sleep at night. some people dont understand how much one word can hurt you. but what hurts the most is when that one person that you love, tells you. ur ugly or your fat, it hurts so fucking much. some people get to the point to where they want to hurt themselves. others just pretned that it doenst hurt when truly it does, and then they cry themselves to sleep. but how can someone actually say somethign so hurtful to another human being and not care? i dont get it
( " fat "
Her voice was sweet, her eyes were kind
She kept secrets and told no lies
She had many friends that helped her out
And she helped them up when they were down
One day at school her friend called her fat
She said it louder and everyone laughed
Everyone turned on her and called her a dweeb
"Please, I've had enough" she would beg and plead
She ran home crying that very same day
Then she ran to the bathroom and grabbed a blade
She pressed it harshly against her wrist
And blood rapidly poured down her skin
The next Monday she came to school with scars
The kids in class saw and went on being harsh
They called her big, round, large, and wide
She wanted to yell but she kept it all inside
Soon she stopped eating, skipping every other meal
Her parents never knew, she kept her lips sealed
She became skinny, pale, bony, and thinner
She threw up her breakfast, lunch, and sometimes dinner
She looked around and everything became dark
So she closed her eyes and fell apart
She fainted that day but no one heard her scream
Her dad saw her on the floor like it was a bad dream
She was rushed to the hospital in an hour or so
And her parents whispered and yelled "please don't go!"
She just layed there on the hospital bed
Cuts on her wrists and a messed up head
Her parents by her side crying endlessly
But she just looked upon them cluelessly
She slit her wrists, she slit her neck
She threw up her food every night before bed
She took some drugs, "it was better than a knife"
She wasted her money, her time, and her life
Her voice once was sweet, her eyes once were kind
Until a single word mutilated her mind
Her friends hoped it wasn't something they said
Cause a few days later, they found out she was dead )
never forget that, you are beautiful no matter what others say, just believe in yourself.
even heroes have the right to dream
I'm not always as confident as I seem ... there are many nights and many days when all I want is to be held. I love being held. Always. Sometimes I don't want to talk about what is bothering me ... sometimes I just want a hug ... someone who will let me cry. I like when boys cry in front of me -- when people aren't afraid to show what they're really feeling. I don't like when people run from their true feelings because it doesn't do anyone any good. I wear my heart on my sleeve, but I am not naive. I know what it feels like to be completely broken and I am all too familiar with what it means to be hurt. "I know what it's like to see something funny and not laugh." I've been taken advantage of, used, and abused. My feelings have been blatantly disregarded. But I still believe that all people are good at heart ... and my trust in people has not diminished. To be completely honest, I hope it never does. Ever.
And tonight will go on forever while we walk around
this town like we own the streets and stay awake through
summer like we own the heat " -summer '05 cant wait
the dreams that fall beneath my feet
make my footsteps feel so sweet ...
Where were you
When I needed you
Where were you
When I called
Where were you
When I cryed
Or when no one else cared
Where were you
When I was sad
Or even when I was mad
Where were you
When I was scared
You were never there
But if I wasn’t so stupid
I would of noticed you
Cause you were always there
Right by my side
I just didn’t notice you
Or I was just to stubborn to care
But you were always there
Except the one time
I needed you the most
You weren’t there
You were no where
If only I would of noticed you before
Maybe you would still be here
But your not
And now when I really need you
Your gone -
dont let what others think of u become what u think of urself
u are ur own person : accept urslef n learn to look in the mirror
n like what u see - it doesnt matter if u dont have the looks of a
supermodel just be a good person and happiness will follow
its funny how we feel so much , yet cannot
say a [ word ] and though you're screamingg
i n s i d e .. outside you cantt be heard
- h o w - do you leave the past behind
when it keeps finding ways to get into
ur heart ? it reaches way down deep
tears you inside out tilll your torn apart
[some things justt werent meant to be]
and even when your finally happy theres
still some people trying to bring you down
i have learned alot over the years through fake smiles
and unseen tears - friends sometimes arent f o r e v r
that love doesnt always l a s t, happy memories stayy
with you- those moments go by last, so enjoy the good
things that go on now cause the good shit never l a s t s
l e t t i n g g o doesn't mean giving up .. it means
accEpting that somethings werent meAnt to be'«3
sometimes all you can do is smile and
move on with the dayy .. holdd your
tears backk and pretend you're okayy'
BOY: SAW HER TODAY
GiRL: i SAW HiM TODAY
BOY: iT SEEMS LiKE iTS BEEN FOREVER
GiRL: i WONDER iF HE STiLL CARES
BOY: SHE LOOKS BETTER THEN BEFORE
GiRL: i COULDNT STOP STARiN AT HiM
BOY: i ASKED HER HOW THiNGS WERE GOiN
GiRL: i ASKED ABOUT HiS NEW GiRLFREND
BOY: iD CHOOSE HER OVER ANY GiRL iM WiTH
GiRL: HES PROBABLY REALLY HAPPY RiGHT NOW
BOY: i COULDNT LOOK AT HER WiTHOUT STARTiN TO CRY
GiRL: HE COULDNT EVEN LOOK AT ME
BOY: i TOLD HER i MiSS HER
GiRL: HE DOSENT MEAN iT
BOY: i MEANT iT
GiRL: HE DiDNT MEAN iT
BOY: i LOVE HER
GiRL: HE LOVES HiS NEW GiRLFREND
BOY: i HELD HER FOR THE LAST TiME
GiRL: HE GAVE ME A FRiENDLY HUG
BOY: THEN i WENT HOME AND CRiED
GiRL: THEN i WENT HOME AND CRiED
BOY: i LOST HER
GiRL: i STiL LOVE HIM
in any moment of uncertainty, step back from your life and take a look at your friends and family who want nothing more than happiness for you
after a while, you can believe in almost anything -
so i'm making myself believe in you .. believe thatt
even if this is a mistake _ it's going to be worth it
it takes years to build up a trust ,
but j u s t a second to destroy iit
why do girls always run from the guys
who try to make them happy but fiight
for thee ones who' make them c r y ?
time, sometimes the time just slips away
annd your left with yesterday, lEft with
the memories. i, i'll alwAys think of you
and smile & be happy for the tiime i had
you with me. tHough we go our separate
ways, i won't f0rget so don't forget the
- m E m o r i e s - we made <3
sometimes people put up walls ... not to keep people
out but to see who cares enough to break them down
i think part of the reason why we hold on to'
something so tight for so long is because we
fear something so great wont happen twice
iif ii could i would do [ all of thiis agaiin'] . travelL
bacck in tiime wiith you to where thiis all began` we
could hide inside ourselves & leave the world behind
& make believe theres s o m e t h i n g left to find
did it ever occur to you that your so caught up in tryin too
makee the right choicee .. that you have never stopped too
consideer the possibility that there may not be a right choice
or a wr0ng ch0ice but just a bunch of choices ?
the good thing about pictures is - they never
change even though the people iin them do
always tell someone how you feel
and mean what you say-say wha'
you mean even it may be hardd -
cause opportunities are lost in a
blink of an eye, but regrets can.
last over a l i f e t i m e e
"sometimes the things you' complain
most about, are the things youu care
most about - unforttunately you dontt
always know that ;before iit's too late
if you look inside a girls heart, you would see how much she really cries- you would find secrets hidden - best friends and lies, but what you will see the most is how h A r d its to stay "strong" when nothin is goin right and when everything is wrong
don`t forget what people say when their
mad because thats when the truth comes out
sometimes all you have to do
is smile at ppl and say fuck u
you can gr0w up with a kid but you neverr r e a ll y n0ticee him .. he is just there on the street ; the playgrroundd ; the neighborhoodd he is part of the scenery , like the green plastiic cans on trash daay you pass thru school,each grade there he is goin along wiith youu your not frends your not enemies yu just cross patths now & theen at the park 1day you look up & there he is on the end of a seesaaw its winter and you sled to the botom of a hill & your trudging up a hill and there he g0es ; zipping d0wnn andd scrreamingg his heaad off maybe it annoys you that he is having even more fuun theen y0uu `but its a 1second thought & its over , you dont even know his name andd tthen .. one day you do you hear someonee saay a namee .' and somehow youu just know thats who the name bellongs to , it is that kid
whats worse ..
a lie that draws a smiile orr-
the truth that draws a tear?
the tears always come.
but it`s the memories
that :: k i l l </3 y o u
everyone wants happiness no one wants pain
but you cant make a rainbow w/o a lil rainnn
sometimes you gota hold yur head up to the sky
fAke a smile' and pretend yur fine . b|c all things
hav a purpose whether its good or bad - hearts
get broken and friends get mAd. but whatever
may happen just keep a smile the whole way thru
and neverr lett anyone get the besst of youu
ive learned never to hang on to someone too tightly because just when youu think they'll stay around something happens' and you lose your grip
courage is just fear holding on a minute longer.
"Laughter is the one true thing everyone will always need."
dont ever let anyone make yu feel like you dont
deserve what you want
real eyes . realize . real lies
"I don't believe in regret. Even if something turns out
negativley, you can learn from that situation"
think about what you say..because it's a fact..no matter
how hard you try..you can never take your words back.
The prettiest people do the ugliest things
never regret something that o n c e made you smile
i keep on thinking things will never change.i keep on thinkingg
things will always be the same but wer' movin on and we cant
slow down ... these memories play like a film without sound -
will the past be a shadow followin us around,will the memorys
fade when we leave this town?will we think about tomoro liike
we think about it now,can we surviive out there can we make
it somehow ? i keep on thinking this is not goodbye, i keep on'
thinking its a time to fly - and this is how it feels
if you saww things from my point of
view, you would think twice aboutt
the shit you thought you knew
"its true that we don't know what we've got until
we lose it, but it's also true that we don't knoww
what we've been missing until it arrives"
the space b e t w e e n the tears we cry is the
laughter that keeps us coming back for more *
somehow time goes by and what you had just goes away...
you never know whats behind a smile
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
They say don't cry because it's over but smile because it happened; but how can I smile when thinking of good things, when I know they'll never happen again?
even the smallest candle burns brighter in the dark
that night, the night when i finally said 'enough is enough,' was biting cold as i slipped out of the party, struggling to hold back my tears & making it only as far as the car, where i spent what seemed like ages fumbling with my keys until i finally felt the lock give & rushed, shivering, into the driver's seat. it took a minute for me to move; i sat there instead with my hands on top of the wheel & my forehead pressed against it, taking in deep breaths of the cool air that was slowly becoming tolerable. sitting up, i wiped my eyes, though it was as useless as a shoveling snow while the blizzard is still happening, & began to drive. i had no where to go, but somehow it seemed like the only option. the lights of the city all blurred into one & i could barely make out the reds, greens, & yellows of the traffic signals as i drove along. my head was no longer doing the driving, though; instead, it was my heart, & i somehow found myself at the football field. you know the one. you remember the night. & as i sat there, i saw it all play out, & through my tears, i smiled. the next place i passed was the sidewalk in front of my grandma's apartment, the one where we stood kissing in the rain. i closed my eyes, & the wetness on my face was still there, almost as if it were happening again. next were the flower shop, the gas station, the car wash...i also passed the beauty salon, i passed meyer's courtyard & i saw the very place we had parked that night. it couldn't possibly have been almost two years ago, could it? because i could still feel the way i had felt that night, the way my cheeks had ached from smiling so hard. the bowling alley, the y, the movie theater...every place has it's own story, it's own unforgettable memory of 'us.' remember when it was 'us,' not 'you' & 'me?' i kept driving, letting occasional sobs escape my mouth as the rain from my eyes steadily fell, & i went to the place i knew would hurt the most. i drove past 'your road,' past my old house where we drove through the fog & you gave me a kiss on the cheek while i drove because you 'couldn't help it,' & finally i saw it. the rest stop. our rest stop. two years it had been ours. i parked the car this time, walked out to the table where we had layed together, & laid down in the freezing cold, listening to the rush of the river. the cold wind burned my face, but when i closed my eyes, i could almost swear it was your warm breath brushing against my face again...i could almost feel your skin against mine, here you whisper those three little words. & i swear, at that moment, the tears were gone. i sat up & looked around. the grass, the grass we had made memories on, was no longer beautiful; it was ugly & brown & had lost the magic it once possessed. i almost laughed at the irony of it all. instead, i sighed, slowly got up & walked to the car. with one last look, i got inside, started the ignition & wiped my eyes completely dry. '& this,' i thought to myself, 'this is letting go '
Lets face it, we've changed .. we've all changed. Somewhere
between summer ending & school starting, we've all gone our
own directions. Hearts were broken, friendshipss diminished,
new loves stArted & new people came into our lives. We no
longer spend all of our time together in our circle of friends,
we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. Some of us
are findng love while others are trying to let go. Even though
we've changed we all know that even though we're all finding
our own place in the world that when we find love, let go of
a love, or when the tears fall or a smile spreads aCross our face
we'll come to each other because no matter where this cRazy
world takes us & no matter what happens nothing will change
so much thAt we're not all best friends forever
Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was "Daddy's Day" at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all. Of a dad whos never there a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats. one by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare. each of them was searching, for a man who wasn't there. "Where's her daddy at?!" she heard a boy call out. "She probably doesn't have one," another student dared to shout. And from somewhere near the back, She heard another father say, "Looks like another deadbeat dad, too busy to waste his day." The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her Mom. and looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on. And with hands behind her back, Slowly she began to speak And out from the mouth of a child, came words incredibly unique. "My Daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so far away. But I know he wishes he could be, Since this is such a special day And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know. All about my daddy and how much he loves me so. He loved to tell me stories he taught me to ride my bike. He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me to fly a kite. We used to share fudge sundaes, and ice cream in a cone. And though you cannot see him. I'm not standing here alone. "Cause my daddy's always with me, even though we are apart I know because he told me, he'll forever be in my heart" With that, her little hand reached up, and lay across her chest. Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath her favorite dress. And from somewhere in the crowd of dads, her mother stood in tears. Proudly watching her daughter, who was wise beyond her years. And when she dropped her hand back down, staring straight into the crowd. She finished with a voice so soft, but its message clear and loud. "I love my daddy very much, he's my shining star. And if he could, he'd be here, but heaven's just too far You see he was a fireman and died just this past year When airplanes hit the towers and taught Americans to fear. But sometimes when I close my eyes, it's like he never went away." And then she closed her eyes, and saw him there that day. And to her mother's amazement, she witnessed with surprise. A room full of daddies and children, all starting to close their eyes. Who knows what they saw before them, Who knows what they felt inside Perhaps for merely a second, they saw him at her side. "I know you're with me Daddy," to the silence she called out. And what happened next made believers, of those once filled with doubt. Not one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had been closed.. But there on the desk beside her, was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
"Sometimes I think you should put a condom on your head, because if you're gonna act like a dick, you might as well dress like one too."
nothingg hurts more than waitingg - cause i dont
even know what i'm waiting for anymoree
the girl who seemed unbreakable - broke
the girl who seemed so strong - crumbled
the girl who always laughed it off - cried
and the girl who would never stop trying
finally gave it all up and quit
im not stupid, i just lack common sense.
im not a poser. i just like music
im not miss popularity. i just have friends.
i dont ignore u. i just dont give a shit.
im not a bitch. im just honest.
im not mean. i just have jokes.
im not insecure. i just dont trust people
